…but it scares me.
It is no secret that Bryan and I were involved in a bible study in Gainesville that really made our leaving one of the most difficult things we’ve faced yet. It became a tradition, as more and more people transitioned out of Gainesville, for our bible study group to send everyone off with a special night that included prayer, kind words, many tears/snot, and so much joy. My favorite part is the journal that gets passed throughout the group for the members to write letters to the couple/family who is leaving.
This journal arrived this week (because technically we were homeless for a while there) and it has rejuvenated my spirit. Though the words were sweet, touched my heart deeply, and brought tears to my eyes, it was the reminder of God’s faithfulness that really pierced deep. This group became our family. They were our lifeline. They were our answer to prayers. To have this book will forever be a reminder that God loves us and is faithful to those who seek Him. I did not wait very patiently for this community, but I waited nonetheless, and He provided.
As I wait again in this new season of life, I’m reminded that his promises are true and that there is a purpose in this transition. It may look like I am an adventurous soul based on certain events, but please do not mistake any of our latest endeavors for bravery. I am scared. Anxiety shows itself more than I would like it to. It is simply faith. Faith that I’m where God has asked me to be. Faith that this will be part of my story that will help others know Him like I do. Faith that my struggle here will result in someone else’s joy and success one day.
“It’s a dangerous business, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don’t keep your feet, there’s no knowing where you might be swept off to.” – Lord of the Rings
This quote was written in some of the last pages of the journal. I love you AL for putting that there. It is not always with excitement that I am swept off my feet, but it will not keep me from walking out the door because this “dangerous business” is far greater than me to stand in its way.